Friday, June 14, 2013

Daddy's letter - Happy 11 Months!

Hi Sweetheart,

It's crazy that in one more month, you're turning 1. There's a saying that "Time flies when you're having fun." This is sooo true because Mommy and Daddy can't get enough of you! I never thought I could get to know someone so well without words. I have gotten to know a lot about you since you were born. Here is a list of the things I know about you:

I know...
who you would like to be held by
who you wouldn't like to be held by
what makes you laugh
what makes you mad
what makes you cry
what makes you sad
what makes you stick your tongue out
when you're tired
when you're hungry
when you're full
when you need a diaper change
when you need to doo doo
when you like to be held
where you are ticklish
the toys you like
the toys you're over
you love bath time
and you love Mommy & Daddy!

Love,
Daddy

Mama's Letter - Happy 11 months!

Dearest little Madison,

Happy 11 Months my cutie pie!! I have to be honest with you. Mama is in denial and not ready for you to turn ONE! Maybe because turning One means you are officially crossing that line from infant to toddlerhood.  Gone are the newborn days when you would lay still for mama to change your diaper because you are now an active little ball of energy!! You have grown so much since your half-birthday and I know as much as I will miss this infant stage, you will continue to blossom into the amazing little girl mama and dada already see you becoming.

It has been a joy seeing you develop your own little personality.. so who is Madison at 11 months? what do you enjoy? what do you dislike?

Maddie, when you wake up in the mornings next to Mama, you immediately have a grin on your face and start to roll and tumble and lay on Mama.  You don't make too much noise as if knowing Mama needs those few extra minutes of rest.  Sometimes you get close to Mama's face and laugh and it brings a big smile to Mama's face and I know it's time to wake up.  Those precious moments in the morning gives Mama energy to tackle the day and while it always breaks my heart a little that I have to be separated from you while I'm at work.. I think about when we are reunited at home again and that big grin that spreads across your face when you see Mama come home from work and reach out your arms to me.  It melts my heart to know that you see me with such joy and happiness every day.

Not only are you crawling, tumbling, standing and even climbing on things.. you are also a talking machine!! We're not sure what you're saying just yet.. but you definitely inherited mama's talkative gene.. You also LOVE watching videos of yourself, especially your favorite video that we play over and over again for you.  The minute you see mama's phone, you start to stick your tongue in and out and laugh at the video.

When you are at the nanny's, you love playing with Brandon and Issac and when Grandma Alice picks you up, you get to go to Great-Aunt Nina's house and play with cousins Jamie and Jodie.  You are one lucky girl! On Tuesdays, you spend all day with Grandma Susan and it is also one of Mama's favorite days because I get to see you during lunchtime!

Madison, you make Mama and Dada so happy.  Soon you'll be taking your first steps, saying your first words, walking, running.. but until then, Mama's going to enjoy your last month as an infant while I can still keep up with you.  I love you baby girl.

Love,
Mama

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

Madison's Favorite Video

I've fallen off the blogging wagon for some time now.. there have been so many events to share and too little time to blog.. This Friday, June 14, my bouncing, active, babbling, energizer bunny baby girl turns 11 months.  I can't believe how fast time flew by and quite in denial that she is turning ONE in a little over a month.

I'd like to share Madison's Favorite Video :)

Friday, May 24, 2013

First Urgent Care Visit

For the past couple days, Madison has woken up in the morning with mucus-y eyes and today it has gotten a bit worse.  Grandma Alice has also been coughing.. although she claims it is "allergies", so there was a possibility Maddie had a little cold as well.  Since we are planning to go to Vegas over Memorial Day weekend, we wanted to make sure it wasn't anything serious so we decided to take Maddie to the Urgent Care down the street from our house.  

Going to "Urgent Care" sounds a lot worse than it is, but the main function of the facility is to provide easy access to medical care when you need it right away without having to go through the hassle of making an appointment at the doctor's office.  We had a very pleasant experience and extremely thankful they are so close by which gives us a peace of mind if we ever run into something a little more serious and need medical attention.  

The pediatrician treating Maddie was very patient and kind and turns out she had a little cold and mild pink eye.  She prescribed us Vigamox eye drops (http://www.getpharmacyadvice.com/vigamox-for-pink-eye-in-kids/) and advised us to be diligent in washing hands, sanitizing, and keeping bacteria and germs away.  

This was a great lesson for us because we were very paranoid when she was a newborn about germs and constant sanitizing, but somewhere between working, feeding and daily grind of life.. we started slacking in cleaning and sanitizing.  Especially now with a mobile crawling baby who likes to put everything in her mouth... it's time to break out the lysol and hand sanitizers..



Saturday, March 2, 2013

OMG!

Someone just started crawlinggggg.. ahhh!!!

Thursday, January 31, 2013

sick baby + sick mama

the past week has been one of the craziest weeks since becoming a mommy! Sick baby + Sick mama = no bueno!!!

Not only did I have to use 4 sick days that I could have used to spend with Madison while we are both well, but seeing my poor little girl sick and being sick myself broke my heart. :(

but... we were NINJAS.. and made the best of our time at home together!


Monday, January 14, 2013

Happy 6 Months Madison!

Dear Madison,

Today you reached yet another milestone.. your half-year birthday!! I am so excited to see what you are going to do next.. sit up, crawl, say your first word.. But with every milestone, I am reminded how fast time is passing and how it feels like just yesterday when mommy and daddy arrived at the hospital excited to finally meet you for the first time.

Happy Six Months my happy beautiful baby girl!

Love,
Mama

Saturday, January 12, 2013

Baby Food Diaries - The Beginning

Madison's six month is coming up on Monday! I can't believe it's been half a year already. Starting solids is going to be a new adventure and although we are excited, we are also nervous to start!! We're just barely getting the hang of our morning and night routines (which is nowhere near "routine" yet) and finding time to feed solids is definitely going to be a challenge. And on top of finding time, I really want to make my own baby food and avoid buying jar/pouch foods. So.. Challenge Accepted!

Baby Food Diaries is my attempt to document this journey into the world of solid feeding! :)

Sunday, December 30, 2012

2012 in Reflection

As 2012 draws to a close, I am amazed how much has changed in my life in just one short year. I am so grateful for life's blessings the past year.

A friend asked me recently, "Is motherhood/parenthood really all what it's hyped up to be? Did your world really change that much?"

At the moment, I just said "yes" because yes, of course it did change but as I took some time to think about what has changed.. it's hard to put into words for someone who hasn't gone through the experience of parenthood for him/herself.

First, it's the overwhelming feeling of absolute "no questions asked" unconditional LOVE. her life is my life. would I take a bullet for her, go to the ends of the world for her, put everything on the line for her.. These are all questions I would never really think to ask of myself if I weren't a parent. Of course, as a devoted wife, daughter, granddaughter, if someone asked me these questions, I would without question say yes for my husband, my mom, my grandma... but I've never seriously considered them on my own. But with motherhood, it's what I think about. You're in a constant "what if" protective mode. Call it motherly instinct or parental awareness if you will. It's having an exit plan forming in your head when you enter a building just in case.

Second, it's putting what she needs before my own without even thinking about it. Sure, I don't watch TV anymore and I don't remember what more than 5-6 hours of consecutive sleep feels like.. but honestly, I have zero complaints. I may feel tired from getting up to nurse at nights and I may be a season behind on all my favorite TV shows but the minute she smiles, my world lights up and every sleepless night is worth it!

And last, but definitely not all, it's knowing that I am responsible for her well-being and that she is my lifetime commitment. It's crazy that she grew inside my belly and that for 9 months we operated as one being and now, she may be physically separate from me, but my bond with her is forever. There will, no doubt, be ups and downs. We will go through her trouble twos, her teenage rebellions, her first love, her first heartbreak, her going to college, her moving to her first place on her own, her wedding.. Whew!! I'm getting too ahead of myself! But, through it all, I know I will forever be by her side encouraging her and guiding her. I may not hold her hand through it all because I believe there is value in learning lessons on her own, but I will always be there to lift her up and support her as best as I can :)

So yes, Madison has changed my life tremendously. Yes, I'm a mom now and I am proud of it. 2012 was an amazing year and 2013 is going to be even better!!



Friday, December 14, 2012

Happy Holidays!

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A letter to my Baby - Happy 5 Months!


Dear Madison,

Baby girl, today, you turn 5 months. Mama can't believe how fast time has gone by and I know soon you will hit milestone after milestone in a blink of an eye. I want to reminisce on the past 5 months and cherish all the wonderful memories you've given us before you grow up too fast! 

From the moment Daddy called out "It's a Girl" when you were born, our hearts filled with love.  Dada and I spent those first couple days in the hospital overwhelmed with joy and in disbelief that after anxiously waiting for you to arrive in our lives, we were finally parents to a beautiful healthy baby girl.  

The first month we spent at Grandma's house was definitely a wild roller coaster ride. Everyone told Mama to sleep when you slept but I just couldn't help staying awake to look at you while you slept so peacefully in mama's arms. And then there were those nights where all you wanted was to nurse and as tired as mama was and as painful as it was, I wanted to do my very best to breastfeed and nourish you as much as I could.  You had so many aunties and uncles who came to visit and were thrilled to meet you.  Some swept you up like you were their own and some were a bit nervous to hold you because you were so tiny!

When we finally brought you home, you settled in right away in your new room.  We were definitely blessed with a baby who LOVES to sleep, just like mommy and daddy! You got to meet your "brothers" Ronald and Batman who were curious to see who was this new little being taking up so much of mommy's time! The next 3 months were amazing as Mama was able to spend every second of every day with you! We attended our first Gymboree class with Auntie Laura & cousin Dylan, went on a rose bowl walk with Auntie Arty & baby Callie, made way too many trips to Target and the mall, and then, there were just the wonderful days of staying in at home.

Maddie, Mama is already SO proud of you.  I know you are going to grow up to be an incredible strong woman but right now, at this moment, I just want to remember you as you are. Before you start to roll over with ease and sit up, before you start to crawl and run and walk, before you stop finding blowing raspberries entertaining because you can say "Mama" and "Dada".. I want to remember your baby cries and your little shrieks of laughter. I want to remember your little hands and chubby thighs. The way you stare up at me when you are nursing and when you try to "talk" while sucking on your wubbanub.  The way you reach for your toys and touch Mama's face. My most recent favorite memory is when you woke Mama up one morning by blowing a raspberry right in Mama's face. It's the way you communicate without being able to talk that I love most about this stage in your life.

As much I love this stage in our lives, and as much as I wish you can be my baby forever.. I am also going to embrace the little girl you are becoming.  And when you fall, Mama will pick you up and when you start to walk, Mama will hold your hand. And when you say "Mama", oh baby, my heart will just melt.

Happy 5 Months Maddie!!

Love,
Mama


Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Songs and Babies

Is it strange that every song I hear today reminds me of Maddie.. must be a new mom thing? Like the opening lyrics to Shania Twain's "You're Still the One" made me think of my breastfeeding journey with Maddie and how far we've come..

"Looks like we made it
Look how far we've come my baby
We mighta took the long way
We knew we'd get there someday

They said "I bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holding on
We're still together still going strong"

or take Rihanna's top hit right now "Diamonds", the lyrics are obviously talking about the moment a mom first lays eyes on her baby girl haha..

"I knew that we’d become one right away
Oh, right away
At first sight I left the energy of sun rays
I saw the life inside your eyes

So shine bright, tonight you and I
We’re beautiful like diamonds in the sky
Eye to eye, so alive
We’re beautiful like diamonds in the sky"

:)

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Back in the grind..


t has just started hitting me today that I'm back at work.. Last week I only had two days so it passed by fast and with over 1,700 unread emails to go through, I didn't really have time to think about it. But today, it is starting to sink in.


My mother-in-law is going to watch Maddie once a week on Tuesdays and she lives near my work so I get to see Maddie during lunch. I thought this would make it easier..but somehow I had a harder time parting with her midday. I've always been a more "out of sight, out of mind, deal with what's on hand" type of person, but that's what I hate most about this situation. I don't want her out of sight, out of mind!! Luckily, this is a short week with the Thanksgiving holiday. Next week is going to be challenging. I just have to keep taking it one day at a time. Thank goodness for the Women's Lounge at work where I can pump and shed some tears in private if I need to :*)



Wednesday, November 14, 2012

Happy 4 Months!!

Hi Big Bright BEAUTIFUL World!

I turn 4 months today!! I'm feeling a little blue with a cough and sniffles but still in fairly good spirits. Mama and Dada are taking me to the doctor today for my checkup and shots so we'll see what the doctor says.  Mama's been having a really tough time dealing with leaving me at the nanny's and going back to work and I'm sure not making it easier for her.  But I'm a brave and strong girl so I know I will be just fine.

Love,
baby Maddie

P.S. I learned two days ago how to blow baby raspberries and I've been blowing a storm of baby raspberries to Mama and Dada's delight!


Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Epic Meltdown

I started this week in tears as my return to work aka D-day is fast approaching on Thursday. With only 2 days of my maternity leave left, I want to spend as much time as possible with Madde. So when my hair appointment ran an hour and a half later than anticipated (I started at 4:30p and didn't finish until 9:30p!!), I started getting really anxious. By the time I got home, I was in full epic meltdown mode. A wave of guilt came over me as I just spent the last 5 hours at a hair salon instead of soaking up every minute with Maddie and then the thought of Thursday fast approaching brought on the waterworks once again..

::sigh:: I know I sound completely crazy and ridiculous, especially to people who haven't had kids.. I would never have though in a million years I would feel this way, but I can't help it right now.  I used to think I would have no problem leaving my kid and going to work, but now I just can't imagine being away from her cute little face!  Any moms out there who feel my pain? I'd love to hear how it was for you.


Monday, November 5, 2012

First (1/2) Day at the Nanny's!!

D-day is coming up soon as in the Dreaded day of returning to work after 4 blissful amazing months at home with Maddie. Just thinking about D-day makes me cry..

But as moms, we must soldier on, so this week we are starting to have Maddie go to the nanny for half days (9am-12pm) so she can get used to the nanny and vice versa. This also gives me a few hours to hit the gym (finally!) before heading back to work.

Maddie did so well when I dropped her off that it made me sad.. at almost 4 months she is showing me she is a big girl now and mommy needs to learn to let go a bit :( but, I am happy she took a liking to the nanny, smiling and making her cute little coos and half giggles.

My motto is.. One day at a time, one week at a time.. breathe, and we'll get through this together baby!

Thursday, November 1, 2012

Halloween Fun!

Here are some pictures from Mommy took of our Halloween fun! I had a great time in my strawberry costume at the mall and loved seeing all the bigger boys and girls running around in their costumes :)

Daddy didn't win the $500 first place at his work, but he did take home 2nd place $300 which was still awesome!

Love,
baby Maddie

Our Halloween Family Portrait: 
Daddy's Scary Makeup by Mommy:
Cousin Dylan came to visit in her Minnie Mouse costume:
Grandma, Mommy and Maddie:
Aunt Jenny & Maddie:
Aunt Wendy & Maddie:
Cousin Jodie as Belle & Cousin Mason as Transformer:
My friend Callie and her Mommy, Arty, celebrating Halloween in Seattle:

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Happy Halloween!

Happy Halloween!! We woke up bright an early this morning to do husband's makeup. There is a contest at his work and the grand prize is $500 so we are in it to WIN it!! think of all the diapers and baby supplies we can buy haha..

Halloween is one of my favorite holidays and I can't wait to share it with Maddie!! This is her FIRST halloween and even though she won't remember anything, we are still going to dress her up an take her to the mall today with my niece and nephew. This past Sunday we took her to the pumpkin patch and she wore her cute strawberry costume (doesn't she look yummy?!) Next year, I am thinking rainbow brite and twink like this picture I found online! :)




Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Prayers for the East Coast

I've been watching the news for hours on end and googling constantly for updates on Hurricane Sandy. Living in Southern California, it is hard to imagine just how epic this storm is. It has affected over 10 states all across the Northeast with over 8 million out of power and fatalities rising daily. I have so many friends on the East Coast and my prayers are with them and everyone else going through this terrifying superstorm.

My heart especially goes out to all the parents whose babies were in the NICU at NYU hospital. Having a baby in NICU is scary enough it's difficult to think about the added stress and fear these parents are going through right now. I am in awe after hearing stories of nurses pumping oxygen by hand carrying infants down 9 flights of stairs (http://www.cnn.com/2012/10/30/health/sandy-hospital/index.html) and how a New Jersey mom gave birth without epidural in a hospital truck. Thank goodness for the nurses, doctors, rescue workers and volunteers who are working tirelessly for those in need.

With all the power outages, my heart also goes out to the breastfeed moms who are in jeopardy of losing their freezer stash. Here is a great article on how to protect your breastmilk (liquid gold!!)

Hurricane Sandy: Tips on Maintaining Breastfeeding Success During an Emergency: http://www.huffingtonpost.com/mobileweb/gina-ciagne/hurricane-sandy_b_2040054.html

Thursday, October 25, 2012

Mommy Brain

Something happens to your brain when you have a baby.. They call it "mommy brain" which is essentially the rapid deterioration of brain cells used to process or retain simple information such as where you left your keys or what you ate for breakfast this morning.

We once found a car at the Disney parking lot windows down, keys in ignition with the engine running, two carseats and no one in sight. This was before marriage and baby, so we were in utter shock. How could any parent be so careless?! When we called security, they said this was a common occurrence at Disneyland and happens at least once a day. Now as a mom, I can totally understand!

With one baby, I haven't reached mommy brain to that level yet, but I've definitely had my share of "mommy brain" moments. It ranges from looking for my phone for 10-15 minutes and then realizing the phone is in my pocket to completely forgetting where I parked outside of Target even though I only went in for 15 minutes to return something.

This morning, my husband left his phone at home and after calling him and hearing it ring in the other room.. I immediately sent him a text message "You left your phone at home". This was 9am, it is now 6pm and I just realized what I did.. now if it took you a moment to process that, then maybe you are suffering from "mommy brain" as well :)